1. In trying times my soul despairs,
My understanding fails;
And then my heart falls prey to sin,
I doubt and gloom prevails.
2. "Most Sovereign Lord," my lips proclaim,
But then my heart betrays
And wretches in anxiety,
Is blind to Thy good ways.
3. With such a Sovereign, Mighty God,
How foolish to despair!
When He is making all things good
For those within His care.
4. That I could see my Father's hand
In every circumstance;
Such hope I'd grasp with all my strength
To see my faith advance.
5. O God forgive my unbelief,
Cause all my fears to cease.
Teach me again Thy love and grace;
Restore my joy and peace.
According to my journal, I began the week of November 16, 1987 in the Slough of Despond" and ended it locked in "Doubting Castle." This hymn is the fruit of my meditation, preaching the gospel to myself late into the night on November 18, 1987. The hymn turns from preaching to prayer, as I confess my sin of unbelief and reaffirm my hope and trust in God's good and sovereign purposes.